Goodbye 2008.

I wouldn't say you are the best year I had...
Probably the worst year I had...
Worst not in a bad way but through those worst times I learnt many things about myself.

Everything by my own now...I'm proud of that!
Being independent makes me very proud!!
Thank you all lovelies who stood by me in 2008!
Good or bad memories it all made my 2008 a memoriable one~!
Thank you~

Hello 2009.

What will you offer me this year??
Please be nice ok~


P/S: Goodbye Log cake, Hello Pineapple tarts and almond cookies!!!

I'm back~
Still sleepy....and eh..I have not unpacked..
But I have done the most important thing which is to hide all the shoes which I bought!!
Why hide?? If you ask that you probably don't have alot of shoes and shoe storage problem..
and also a mum who kinda notice your shoes!!

Mummy obviously know I bought shoes coz when I came home she was like...
Bought new bag huh~...What about shoes??
She know I bought them..but now how many pairs...so SHHHHH!!!
coz it's 7 pairs in 2 days~ or more like erm...4 pairs in 3hrs and 3 pairs in 15mins~




I shall be more elaborate about the trip soonies...like next year!

After that 7 gruelling days~
It's over...last day as usual was the worst..
Sorry to Chews and Fishes with my bad attitude on the phone...
I love you two BIG....HUMONGOOSE!
Had a hard day~

But IT'S CHRISTMAS!!
Merry Christmas one and all..
Nothing but love to family members and loves ones...

And yes...tomorrow I'm leaving..
I haven't packed....
I couldn't find the luggage...
I didn't even place the clothes i need on my bed...
I think some clothes are in the washer or basket...
I haven't changed money....
I haven't taken out my passport...
I basically haven't done anything~...
I am THAT prepared... *grinz*

Bye sad world...going to have some fun~

I have one Grand-daddy Tay...
Four official Grandma Tay's...

I label my grandma's according to their location..

So from no. 1 -4..

1 => Thailand Ah Ma
2=> 奶奶 - Nai Nai (MY official real grand mama)
3=> Geylang Ah Ma
4=> Tiong Bahru Ah Ma

Thailand Ah Ma passed way way long ago....not long after she gave birth to BIG uncle...

Tiong Bahru Ah ma passed when I was in Sec 5... I totally have no memory of her at all...
I must have definetly met her before but I don't have memory of it...Her funeral, her final farewell I was banned from her funeral becoz that year the rabbits 'Fan Tai Sui"..
So I can say for my memory I have never met her...

Geylang Ah Ma passed Thursday 18th dec....Tomorrow is our final farewell to her...
I miss her because besides my 奶奶 she is a grandma who is a wife of grandpa i know..
And I see her alot coz she lives with Ah Gong..and she is always smiling and offering me food..
I was a shy kid u see~~....I am really shy when around family...
Known as the quiet one...Coz I don't know majority of my cousin's and apparently I am not socialable enough~

Going to talk one last time to grandma...
I bet she is happily with pops~

I have to make more time for 奶奶 now~...

Final Goodbye to Geylang Ah Ma...
阿妈今天我才真的发现我以后在也看不到你了..
不能看到你的笑容...
不能再握你的手...
阿妈我想你....我也爱你.
看到阿公要和他说我过的很好~
我也很爱也很想他~

I'm so angry with fellow my fellow countrymen today!! But I met an angel~~

I really felt like she was my little angel...a person whom one may bump into and never meet again~
In the crazily full train I was squeezed in an extremely awkward position...
Seeing me..she shifted herself so I could at least stand properly, and held my hand to a pole she was grabbing to so that I wouldn't fall...
There I really felt that a stranger could really care!! My angel~~

Than her phone rang...she started talking...
I heard her say : " Now I know why I have been sad.....I didn't say goodbye to him for the last time"
She started crying and trembling....
She said :"he passed away before I said goodbye...."

Every Idiot in the train started staring at her with eyes hinting she is crazy!!
I got angry....I held her hand and smiled...
It was my stop...I had to go....and something I wished I had done was give her a hug and say he knows she cares.....

And more reason I should be angry with my fellow countrymen!!
I saw a stupid lady and her boyfriend at the traffic light....and she decided not to cross the road anymore...turned back....kicked this guy's crutches!!! AND SHE DIDN'T EVEN APOLOGISE! IDIOT!! she just looked back at him as if it was his fault! and the boyfriend just stared on.....
The dude in crutches nearly lost balance!!

That's the problem with Singaporeans...they bump into you and stare at you like it is your fault what it was THEIRS!! STUPID IDIOTS!!

Another reason I am angry....my heel got stuck-ed in a little hole on the pavement...I just stopped to gentle nudge my shoe up.....and yes...people walk behind people that's how it is....
2 girls was behind me when i was stuck..and they just walked around me...
Stupid guy who was with wife or girlfriend or fiance whatever status of that sloppy woman~!! was walking behind the 2 girls and he was like having a problem with my shoe being STUCK IN THE HOLE!!!!

He stared at me with dagger eyes for like the longest time!!! I'm sorry your sloppy woman wears ugly dirty flip flops!! You and your sloppy woman must NEVER worn heels before so you don't understand that it can get stuck!!
Crap you!! I so wanted to bite off your head!!!

ROAR!!!!!!!!!

So angry...maybe it's the hormones...but I still think they are disgustingly RUDE!!!

Thank you for all you have said to me.
I have a very vague memory of you because you are always so near yet so far.
I do remember the first thing you always say when you see me is "you have grown up and is beautiful"
I always think you say that just because you love and care for me.
I remember you always made the most yummy longan red date tea.
When Grand-daddy left, Uncle and Aunties said brother and I had to hold his hand
I remember being scared, lost and crying terribly
There you held my hand and said he will always be with me no matter what.

Sorry Grams that I have not seen you more ever since Grand-daddy left.
My last memory of you was when you were in the ICU,
You still flashed me a smile when I could only see you through that glass door.
Signaled for me to go in and again you held my hand and said you would be alright.
I know you would be happy where you are now, enjoy your time with Grandpa.
Bye Grams. I love you.

This week is my socialising week~

Was suppose to see Ezzam's art exhibition at Singapore Arts Museum...
But when we reached.....museum closed!

In the end watched Muallaf at picture house~
My 2nd picture house movie!! I like...more trips there I hope!
Suz said next time we should watch explicit movies there~!!
I'm willing to be see gruesome things all in the name of art~~!!


okok...Muallaf is a really good show..
Sparks alot of discussion after the movie.
It's about 2 muslim sisters who ran away from home.
And a chirstian chinese boy who fell in love with one of the sisters~

It's a interracial, inter-religious love movie. Talks about sensitive issues people normally won't touch~
I felt that the movie helped me understand why I don't attend church often now too~
The deep bond between the two sisters is very sweet too~

"its because I matter that's why what I say affects you"


Socialising week is over~
Next week is final work week!!
LOVE IT!!!

Christmas is coming~
I sure haven't felt the christmas spirit yet~~

ShhhHHHhhh!! Don't anyone mention to my bossy that I headed to have some "night exercise" 2 times in a row this week ok!!
SHHHHH!!!
He would start saying I'm partying too much again! GRRR...he is old man you see...been there done that!
So he is jealous I'm going through it...doing it~

Wednesday was for mumbo night!! But crazy mumbo was so crowded headed to Fullerton for drinks instead....
Terrence still wanted to go mumbo....so headed back again at 1am..
MUMBO IS FUN!!!! like MAJOR karaoke!!
no pictures of wed...coz apparently the only TWO pictures we took with Terence his eyes are closed!!! *&#$#*#@*$#

Thurday!!!!!!!
Herstory!!!!!!

OH MY! I like~~ *widest smile*
Fishy wanna go lesbian night...and just so happen this week is herstory...so eh...I have to go with her ma....
Nearly heard pigs snorting in the sky when Ms. Voo said she wanna go club~!!

Herstory was having its 10yrs anniversary....
SJC peeps!

My peeps! okok.....i's red.....

Fishy~!....Cheryl complained that I left fishy standing alone while I was chatting with others...
Not being a very good friend coz fush fush was like alone there...

xUan: " aiyah...she is watching the tv la....trust me she is entertained"
**Tv was showing past herstory events and other stuff....**
Cheryl:" she alone there~....."
walked with cheryl to fish to convince her, fish is not bored.
xUan : " are you entertained?"
fish :" Yes!! *wide smiles*"

and eh...cheryl went on saying that after that night the fish would not be innocent anymore!! hahahaha~

okok...so moral of story...my fish is like those aunties that can be entertained whenever the tv is on!!Love you!! Hope you enjoyed!!

Christina~!!...Just as I was about to dance...the gone her was going home~~

Shi Min is happy~....i don't think i've seen her "cute poses" in pictures before~~

The old lady who has not had "night exercise" in a VERY long time~
We were suppose to look out for baits for one another....

Saw my tofu at herstory~...Why is he there!!??
he says :" I'm lesbian....I like girls"
His friends all didn't believe I was his REAL sister.....
and started asking him in whisper mode "is your sister gay?? is you sister gay??"

I insisted they asked me...coz I WAS JUST STANDING NEXT TO HIM!!


After two weeks having to work during weekends~...
I'm having a fun NON-work week~

Officially dead tired and needa re-cooperate now~..
Old~

I had SO much fun it's beyond your imagination!!!
SO MUCH FUN!!!
Music, ice-cream and music...a perfect combination!!

还是放不下...
还在想那些不堪的回忆...
都是照片惹的祸...